Today was my last day of the rotation. It was a little bittersweet. Honestly I wouldn’t mind coming in for a little while longer. Maybe that a cringey thing to say, but it’s true, at least at this moment in time. Though part of it is probably the fact that I’m under no obligation to stay there the whole day, I don’t have any actual responsibility there, and the residents are all so cool and fun to work with. Maybe also because I really don’t want to take my Shelf exam. Another part is when I learn in the hospital or in the clinic it feels like my learning is actually connected to something that matters, not just a red X or a green checkmark.
Anyways it’s over whether I like it or not and I’ll just have to appreciate it for what it was. Overall it was a very positive experience and I’m definitely now leaning more towards working in peds in some capacity.
We had a new attending today, and he brought with him a first year medical student (who I’m pretty sure lives on my floor) and an undergraduate student. They came on rounds with us and so we did a little extra teaching with each patient. When we got to my patients I felt a little more nervous than usual and I wonder if the youngers could tell I had no idea what I was talking about (ok I had some idea). That said, and I think I mentioned this before, I do enjoy teaching and I could see it as a part of my future, but first I need to gain more mastery of all the material. Seeing them though, and thinking about how I was once in both their shoes was motivating.
I think it’s really time for me to really dial in on a Plus Ultra attitude.