I recently finished Season 3 of The Seven Deadly Sins on Netflix. I actually watched it with the Spanish dub in my effort to learn the language. The Seven Deadly Sins in Spanish is Los Siete Pecados Capitales (actually meaning the seven capital sins), which is really fun to say. Anyways I really enjoyed it and highly recommend it. If you look past the flashy action and perverted jokes there is some really interesting themes. This is common for a lot of animes, and usually gets me doing some introspection.
I’d say my sin is pride, though of course it’s not the only one, but it’s the one I’ve been thinking about the most recently. I don’t think I am arrogant, but I do like to be able to do things on my own, and to prove that I can do things on my own. A lot of the people I look up to, especially in my own family, had gone through their fair share of struggles to get where they are now. I on the other hand have lived a pretty charmed life, and I feel insecure about that. I have this desire to prove that I deserve all the good fortune that has come to me; that I somehow produced my own success, just like in all the famous success stories.
As I write it out, it becomes even more stupid to me. First of all, nobody does anything alone. There is always someone, or more likely someones, behind the scenes who are key to success (let me know if you can think of any counter examples). I don’t need to prove that I deserve anything to anyone because it’s not a question of whether or not I deserve something. The question is, What am I going to do with it? Just like with regret, over-pondering deservedness does little for me in the present. I have to accept and be grateful for any beneficial situation I find myself in, and use it in a productive way.
Nothing I produce could be possible without the goodwill of other. However, nothing can be produced by goodwill alone. It is my responsibility to do my part to try and convert what I’ve been given into something of equal or greater value. Denying the support and resources of those around me does not make me independent or worthy, it makes me ungrateful and naive. I’ve put too much stake in trivial displays of independence, and in doing so have failed to take the time to properly appreciate the people and the opportunities to whom I owe everything.
Disculpe me, intentaré hacer mejor proximo vez.